Exam over....

i'm not happy...i may feel less stressed because i don't need to study anymore for the moment but i feel really sad...exam was bad..horrible...unbelievably hard.....

the mcq i thought was ok...mana tau when feedback came(yes the answers were shown after the exam).....i had so many mistakes, hahaha, i cant even smile anymore....and urgh the ospe and emq n meq......don't mention it....

can i just go somewhere with where nobody can contact me where i'll never here or see my exam results....and it doesnt matter hahahahaha...

i try to enjoy abit for now...but inside i just...urgh...got this mixture of sadness, anger, despair...worry...anxiety....tiredness...SIEN-NESS

lost weight due to the revisions...sacrificed sleep for revision...straining of eyes due to prolonged revision....disturbed sleeping patterns......didn't eat properly.....suffered so much and yet the results.....very nice, very nice indeed. makes me think, what's the point of studying so hard?

Stress-less

that's what i want to be, STRESSLESS!! NOT STRESSED UP. exams are so near but I....just find it so difficult to study. do you know how that feels? extremely frustrating. you want to study but you just...can't bring yourself to look at the notes...

that's the no 1 stress. 2nd is because of...GP posting. After the exams...a few weeks later, we are required to do a posting with any general practitioner clinic for 5 days. the thing is....we are suppose to look for a clinic ourselves!! T_T

so.....for some1 like me...who's not a local area resident....who doesn't have a car.....is completely in trouble. 1, going around finding clinics is hard, getting them to accept you is even harder... and after you got 1, going to the clinic n back is hard.

ok, i'm not thinking so much first. why? that's because after 9 clinics.....i'm still back to square 1. actually it's -ve already because i've asked all the nearby clinics....T_T...i'm doomed... and the dateline was yesterday. so when i contacted the person in charge, she said: you just have to find 1 yourself.

HELP ME!!! HELP ME!!! anyways, besides that.....i've uploaded a new nice song, by Taylor Swift, Fearless. hope u liked it

Akinator, the web genius

recently i discovered a fun website game by reading a blog. this game is all about you, thinking of a character and a virtual genie, called Akinator, will ask you a few questions to try to figure out who you're thinking about. 

you can think of any character, ranging from famous people,(actors, actresses, singers, etc, etc) to fictional characters from movies, cartoons, animes, games etc, etc (it doesn't neccessarily have to be human, haha, can be like garfield, pikachu etc) to even yourself, hahaha.

how good is this genie? pretty good. i'll give you some example of characters i thought of, in which he guessed correctly: mariah carey, bill kaulitz(from tokio hotel), jackie chan, mickey mouse, a patapon(from a game in psp), kuchiki byakuya (from anime bleach), legolas (from lord of the rings), lady slyvanas (from warcraft), garfield and myself, hahaha

i got a few friends to try it and other examples of characters he guessed correctly were: pikachu, dobby (from harry potter), etc, etc

got you interested in playing? haha, click here http://en.akinator.com/ and start playing. the genie is really cool. i managed to defeat him when i thought of albert einstein, haha, and my friend defeated the genie when he thought of.... kluang man......lol

enjoy yourself, also today's mother's day. wish your mum happy mother's day!! (my mum is in KL, so yesterday i spent the whole day with her in  my apartment, plus today half day at sunway pyramid, tee hee, my mum bought me dress cos it's cheap and nice!! RM35 only!!! XD, i bought her a cake from secret recipe, chocolate indulgence, haha, anyways, happy mother's day, mum!)

........ my revision is seriously lacking........T_T

MUET over, time for INTENSIVE REVISION

the title says it all, good night.

hahaha, well, my MUET speaking test was fine, i got a realtively ok topic to talk about. i hope i can get at least band 4.

i tell you what happened last night...my handphone is a bit cacat-ed, so sometimes, there is no sound..just before going to sleep, i set my handphone alarm to 1 minute later than the time to see if got sound, and NOOOOOO, there was no sound when the alarm rang. so i whack the phone a few times with my hand, and the sound came back again. (yeah, i've encountered this problem before, haha). so then i set the alarm at 6.20am and when to sleep unpeacefull for fear of the alarm going soundless in the morning.

and so i slept......and i dreamt.....that it was 6.20 already, time to wake up. so i woke up with a jolt...check my handphone and it says 12 something!!! so i went back to sleep....and dreamt that it was 6.20 again and woke up at 1 something!!!!and i slept and had the same dream again!!!! and woke up at 3!!!!!!!!!!!

i told myself: ok alicia, it is the pits. u better get a hold of yourself and get some sleep and not be too worry about the time!! and so i slept again....and woke up at 6.20 when the alram rang, hahaha. 

how strong is my sub-conscious worry, lol.

sigh, on a more somber tone.....

there is only 3 weeks left for revision.....T_T.....not enough time to revise finish....

i am tired lately with all the stuffs that's been going on...IMS, MUET, lectures....i need my sleeeeepp....and i need to revise. that's all i must do daily, oh and eat, haha. SLEEP, STUDY, EAT, SLEEP, STUDY, EAT, SLEEP, STUDY, EAT......(mumbling away...akin to reciting a mantra)

I'm still surviving

tiredness...that's all i 've been feeling since Monday...

there was CSU on monday afternoon, lectures everyday, kidney dialysis centre visit on tuesday morning, and there was IMS....!!! IMS!!! both monday and tuesday nights, i was at my friend's apartment with another group member discussing about our IMS presentation from 8pm till 11.30pm!! right, so u can imagine then, after i got back....i still have to research  some more!! and went to sleep late...

during the dialysis centre visit.....after standing for 45 mins listening to the nurse talk about the centre (and also stories of the patients, lol)....i was at my limit. it was all i could do to hold back the urge to run to the nearest empty chair (the leather chair for the patients look mighty comfortable just then, lol, i nearly ran the the empty ones to sleep, haha) or just collaspe on the floor and SLEEEEEEEPP....... my headache was really bad and also, i felt hungry...T_T...but why?? i ate a pau for breakfast!! so midway of the nurse's talk about some patient's personal life, (i wasn't listening), i interrupted her (paiseh, my other classmates were looking at me), told them i felt woozy due to lack of sleep, and excuse myself to find a chair to sit. so i went to the waiting area, sat down with all the uncle and aunties looking at me, close my eyes and slept. no la, i didnt sleep, lol, just rest a bit. and then joined them after a few short vital minutes of rest.

and when we came back at 10.30am, i hurriedly walked back to my apratment, lie on my bed and SLEEP!!! the joy....oh oh, it was like melting away, lol. got 2 hours plus of sleep before waking up for lunch then going to pbl at 2pm.....AND THEN!!! my facilitator came at........3pm!!! @U&@#^$@!$ and then because she told us the trigger was an important 1, and she didn't want us to rush doing it, with the IMS and all...we did not have our pbl......it is postponed to friday. %#@%^&*%!!!

ya, so at night, we prepared for the presentation for hours again(what we're going to say, what should we write in the powerpoint slide, etc etc) so then causing me to sleep late again....and causing me to wake up at 10.15am so that we can practise the presentation...all this for 1.5% of our total final exam marks!!

so afternoon came, and we did our presentation. it was ok, i guess....i'm too tired to think about it...tomorrow having my MUET oral test, so have to wake up at 6.20am....!#$^$ T_T.....

i'm proud that i'm still alive, lol. anyways, since i have to wake up extra early tomorrow plus i'm dead tired now...i'll be sleeping early tonight!! 9 sumthing!!! XD !! wish me luck for tomorrow!!! Good luck to me!!!! lol

Study break ends...

that's right.....i'm so sad....it ends tomorrow...my 1 week break... and monday.....i got csu....tuesday i got dialysis centre visit(i have to car-pool with friends cos IMU does NOT provide transport, wtf) and pbl.....T_T...not to mention, i have some IMS(intergrated medical seminar) which is due on wednesday.....and thursday morn, i have my MUET speaking test....

oh, the horror....this is my last free week.....from monday onwards, i shall slowly deteriorate in mind, spirit, soul, body, etc, etc...all the way to my exam on 29th May....and my revision is still lukewarm....T_T.....no, it's still cold.....

my 1 week of holiday!!! i mean study break!!! aaaarrrrggghh!! don't leave me...no......sniffles...well.. looking at the bright side...after exam, it's freedom!!!! school only starts early august!! FEVER! FEVER!! saturday night fever.... after 29th may

ok, so next few posts, i'll probably be posting about my heavy workload, my not-enough revisions, my exam and my impending doom. so any1 of u out there who reads this blog and want me to blog about something else, feel free to suggest some topics to me, hahaha...